Will I or wont I have a job. Plus do I care

I found out today that there will be more layoffs at Aetna in March. This time it is the disability department. We will see. There is part of me that would like to be laid off but I am scared. I need to work. I like earning my own money. I am 55 years old. Who in hell is going to hire someone my age. Lets face it. They don't want to. They want young people. On the other hand I could spend time with my grandchildren especially in the summer. I could go to Joes and help with the kids. Or bring them here. I want to make more money.

I work with people
I love my job
I am respected
I earn between 38-40k a yea
I have 4 weeks vacation
I have 7 sick days
I have 9 holidays

That is what I have. Anyhow, went to the dentist and got a new temp crown. I thought I was going to need a root canal but didn't. Artie called to see how I am doing. Great. Ihave to say this is the first time any dentist called to see how I am. Says allot about him as an AP and as a person.

I am impressed.

I am tired. will go to sleep. I got a gorgeous new bag.

2010 not a year of rest

Its only 2/8/10 and I am tired. Already...Its been stressful. Heather in jail, Joe falling apart, Chris and my job. I am so resenting the attitude of the people who are in charge at Aenta. Janice has become a huge dissapointment as a "manager". She really is into the " I am Janice manager, hear me roar." Crap, the attitude of our managers, not team leads but managers suck. They have the attitude. Be glad you have a job. Does not give me a feeling of warm and fuzzies. I am getting very resentful of the way we are all treated. " you are have job, work till 8. Its bullshit. I am so sick of this crap. I want a new job, working with people. being respected, no nights at all, oow at 4:30-5:00, M-F, $38,000-$40,000, 4 weeks vacation 7 days sick days and 9 holidays. this is what I want

This is my new job
work with peopl
38-40k
4 weeks vacation
7 sick days
respected
9 holidays

Plus $50k in my account

This is what I have

I love to cook

I love cooking big. Tomorrow I am going to cook beef briciole. I am cooking muffins, roast chicken, pasta fagiole, and potatoes. I just love it. I love trying new recipes. I love home made. I really don't like prepared food. I love the smell of the house when food is cooking. It smells like love. Microwave smells nothing. With cooking you put in your spices and touches and especially if it is cooking slow and the more it cooks the more the smells come alive. When someone smacks their lips and enjoys the food, it warms my heart. I get so excited just thinking about it. I want to take some cooking classes.

Yum

TGIF

Thank God Its Friday.

I am so glad it is the weekend. Its been a long week and I have been yelled at all week. This weekend a contractor will be over to give an estimate on the basement. I am cooking and sewing and reading.
I like to cook, read and sew. I do want to go to breakfast. I love breakfast. blueberry pancakes or crepes, bacon eggs, biscuits yum. Plus or first coffee. Jeez that would work for me righ now.

I am going to relax and get some sleep.

Happy Birthday to my two wonderful grandsons, Blake and Cole. 4 years old, sweetheart. I love you both

What does a 55 year old woman wants to do for fun

Or my bucket list. Life is too short. What do I want to do before I die.

1. Go to Sonoma and go on wine tours and eat.
2. Go to Italy and Greece, drink and eat.
3. Go to a balloon festival in Alburquerque
4. Write, write
5. Learn to speak French,Italian, and Spanish
6. Ballroom dancing
7. Take my grandkids to Disney
8. Teach my grandkids to cook
9. learn to sing
10. finally get rid of the weight
11. take cooking classes, Italian
12. embroidery and applique on quilts
13. long arm quilting

NOT ONE MORE THING!!!

I have had it. If anything more happens to my family. I am so done! It is such crap. Chris better not get indicted cause I can't take it. He gets robbed and he gets arrested. Its bullshit. I am so not trusting the "justice" system. I think the whole system is crooked. They all lie and full of it. I don't trust any of them. This country has gone to the way of no rights for the citizens. Tell them the truth, they lie. They are out to destroy the people in this country. The country is controlled by a "group" of people.

I will never trust the police, the prosecutors or the system again.

Its pretty sad but its how I feel.

thank you

He is getting married

Joe wants to get married again. Heather is going to prison and he is freaking out that he wont be able to see Heather for 6 weeks when she goes to Windham.This is so surreal. How do I wrap my head around this? I really don't know. It freaks for me out. One decision that affected so many lives. A woman was killed, a boy and man lost their wife and mother and that doesn't even count the other people in her life. Heather's girls lost their mother for who knows how long. Joe and his kids lost Heather. He will be able to have visits and phone calls. He loves her. My grandkids love her. Was she drunk who knows. I don't know. Their was so much wrong with this case. The in consistency, the shoddy workmanship, I don't get it. What can I do, I don't know.

It is going to be hard for Joe when his kids go home and he is alone. But he will work through it.