Life you just never know.

Work is really getting to me. I hate the way they will be doing things. I hate that you have clock out for this and for that. I hate that there is a committee to get a freaken day off. I hate you have to call some damn number to call and you don't talk to a person. This is such BS.

What do I want. I am having fun and making $50k. Fun and more money is important to me. Fun is #1. I want to feel usefull and have fun. I want to help and have fun. I want to love my job. I want to make a difference and have fun.

Fun, fun is important to me. I am 56 nd have not had much fun in my life. Fun thats what I demand.

There

Its been awhile.

Great news today. Chris's issue is resolved. Now he doesn't have to worry. Nothing over his head. It looks like Joe is getting married again. I don't know when but if its what he wants then I am happy for him. I do know Joe just adores Heather and I hope she loves him as much as he does her.

My job is to be supportive and I will. Well ok, today is Tuesday April 27. Chris was due on this day 36 years ago. I can't believe he will be 36 in a couple of weeks. It sure goes by fast.

I applied for a new job with Aetna and hopefully I will get it. I think. I want to start making more money and do more to help people. This just isn't enough. I know I will be good at this job. I don't know if I can trust J or R but if the job is for me then it will be.

Happy Easter

I haven't written in a few days. I went to Chris and NIkki's for Easter. I went yesterday. My dear Mason was a little terror. Hitting, yelling and being a bratty three year old. Chris isn't much help. Mason hits me and his mother and Chris laughs. He is a handfull. But oh I love him with all my heart. All the kids were together which was great. For me there is nothing like getting the family together. I just love it, Do I get tired? Yes but thats ok. I look at the kids and can't believe they are going to be 4 and Anna is 6. It sure goes bye fast. I don't know where the time goes.

Weight I did not do that great this weekend but thats ok. Tomorrow is another day. It helps with Neil doing it with me.

Polly is getting on my nerves but she is so miserable and making sure others are miserable too. She is very negative. I don't understand it. Why does she want to behave that way. She can make choices. She isn't positive about anything. But again, she never has been. Its exhausting.

Speaking of exhausting. I am going to bed.