Happy New Year

Its 2010. I can't believe it. So we all think about our resolutions. For me it is to be organized. Get my life in order. That means financially, get out of debt, save money and think about spending before I spend. It means organizing my home and space. I am going to throw things out and find a place for everything. But the big thing is to put away after its used. Now how about healthy, which means losing weight again. I had lost 33 lbs and put it all bag on. But now I am looking at high sugar, high bp and I don't want to deal with all that.

I like to eat, I like to try new foods and I love sugar. Thats going to be my big thing is cutting out the sugar. So Neil and I are going to do this together. I will be planning my meals and snacks cause that is what I need to do. My attitude has to look at this differently. I sometimes think of dieting as as punishment for being out of control. Cause I can get out of control. This morning I had my coffee, went into the refrigerator and there is a box of little cream puffs. You know what I did. I took them out of the fridge and had a couple, then before I knew it my hand was in the box and eating one after another. I finally had to throw them out cause I would have eaten the whole damn box.

Its a good thing Neil goes to the grocery store and does the shopping cause I am an impulse buyer. If it looks good, I buy it, if I think I need it I buy it. Then I eat it. Don't think I will eat one cookie, a little chocolate or a small bowl of chips. Hell no, I want more and more. So I am going back to eating a good breakfast, egg whites, small bagel, fat free cheese and Franks hot sauce. Then its fruit and yogurt. A snack of fruit. Dinner salad and meat. I love the WW ice cream. So here we go again.

I am going to look at it as a new adventure and to get healthy. It will not be easy but I want to be healthy and get my life under control. That means, organizing, financial, and food.